Hi. My name is Jesse, and I'm an idiot. Have a nice day.

Portland was nice. Too bad the Mens Basketball team lost the first round.

I partied too hard this past weekend. Way too hard.

So Tampa was awesome. Mississippi State won the Men's Basketball Tournament which earned them a spot in the NCAA Tournament. This means that I won't be traveling for the women's team after all, but I will instead be flying to Portland, Oregon for the men's tourney. We leave tomorrow morning.

The bus ride back from Tampa was pretty dreadful though. We were stuck in traffic for what seemed like forever in Florida so the bus ride took several hours longer than expected which put us getting home at 5ish this morning. I got to bed around 6am only to have to wake up and go to work. I still gotta get laundry and whatnot done for the trip tomorrow morning. We did, however, get to see the space shuttle launch on the drive back from florida. It was interesting to see.

The future looks quite busy.

Heading to Tampa Bay tomorrow for the Men's SEC Basketball Tournament. Should be fun. Heading to Los Angeles (or so I'm told) for the Women's NCAA Basketball Tournament next wednesday. I hope both teams do well.

I'm debating whether or not I'm gonna go to class in the morning. I don't want to go.

I'm getting better at double bass. I'm nowhere near where I'd like to be, but I've definately improved nonetheless. I practice pretty much every day. I've been working on my limb independence and endurance. I really need a new crash cymbal and some new bass heads, but I don't want to spend money on that stuff just yet. I have the money, but with so much stuff coming up, I want to save the extra money I have.

I've been trying to learn sign language (ASL) the last few months, but I've really been slacking lately. I have been learning vocabulary online. My goal had been to learn a new word every day, but I really haven't been keeping up with it. I'll keep it up though. Hopefully I can take a class next semester.

 So I've been thinking too much lately. A little bit about my future and a lotta bit about my personal life. As far as the future, it's one more semester and then I'm done with school. I'm ready to be done with school, but I really don't know where I'm gonna end up. I guess time will tell. In terms of my personal life, it's been mostly about how lonely I've felt lately. My best friends have all pretty much got their own shit to deal with. Gwok doesn't want to do anything 90% of the time cause he's either hanging out with his new chick or off doing some bs for the winterguard. Kyle got shipped off to camp shelby for a month and will be going to Iraq soon. Nola doesn't do anything but play soul caliber all day long and even he's getting shipped off to boot camp in a week. The rest of my friends are all flakey as hell which leads me to my next topic....

I need a woman in my life. My recent escapades haven't exactly proven anything other than that I have bad timing and am shitty at picking out a decent girl. I need someone who isn't going across the globe for 5 months and then moving halfway across the country when she gets back. I need someone who doesn't tell me we should do something later in the week only to find out they're going to the coast later in the week. Oh thanks! I want someone who says what they mean. And I'm tired of maybes. Fuck a maybe. Oh we should do this... maybe. Look, either you want to do something or you don't. It's simple. I'm tired of people trying to not hurt someone's feelings or save face. I respect people who say what they think, not what they think you want them to say. But then I'm faced with another obstacle: all the women I know are in a relationship, too young, bat-shit crazy, sluts, or just plain uninteresting/unattractive. And the ones I do find interesting... fuck... I don't know. I just don't know. The only thing I know is I'm tired of being bored as fuck almost every day of the week. I'm gonna fix this shit.